Hello baby, Ibu here..

These past 2 days I've been caught with flu. and today I feel like having a fever. Im worried because it might affect you baby. Lets just pray you are going to be healthy okay I pity your daddy because I did not being responsible as his wife. I rarely do anything, all I do is just laying and watching tv. This pregnancy makes me tired and very lazy. But I am sure there will be silver lining after all this.

First

Assalamualaikum baby, Ibu here.

You are currently in 7 weeks 5 days. You are in size of kidney bean. Yesterday I went for a check up, and for the first time I can see you. You are beautiful, the most beautiful thing I ever seen in entire life, Your heartbeat is so fast, are you nervous with me looking at you? Hehe. I cant stop smiling when I see you and I still remember how do you look. you are tiny, and cute. I feel like crying when I see you and right now I am crying. I cannot stop saying Alhamdulillah :) Thank you baby for making me remember Allah. You are the reason I feel my relationship with our creator is closer.

But baby, every rainbow will come after storm. The doctor told me something is wrong with my heart, there is some abnormal sound, she said. I have to go to hospital at the end of this month to scan my heart. I am so worried, I'm worried about you, and your father too. This morning after Subuh I cried in your daddy's arm. I just feel scared of losing you both. All this while I prayed to God, asking Him to give you the best, your health and everything but I forget to ask Him for my health too. I guess this is His way to remind me. I guess we can only stay patience and redho, right baby? I don't want to cry because I'm afraid you're gonna be affected but I'm sorry because I cant hold my tears.

But baby, right now I feel better. I dont want to burden your Daddy with this kind of problem. He had enough problem to think. But it's okay now I got you hehe.

So this is it. Until next time, I love you baby *kisses

p/s this is the picture of your Ibu and Daddy at Perhentian, after my kayak expedition. Did I mention I was a kayaker hahaha

The Beginning

Hello baby,

This is your mother writing after a hiatus. I haven't write anything since God know when. And here I am, writing again, because of you, and for you.

*smile